Sunday, January 29, 2023

Journal rambling Jan. 29, 2023

 

This is some journal rambling I did on January 29, 2023. I’m not sure why I’m posting it here, but here it is.

 

I’m reading Jon Meacham’s book The Soul of America, The Battle for our Better Angels. I just started and haven’t read much of it yet, but boy to I have bone to pick with Meacham. He is painting far too rosy a picture of American history. He mentions Jefferson without saying he as a slaveowner. He mentions some of Jackson’s flaws but doesn’t go far enough in blasting him for them. He praises Teddy Roosevelt without saying that he was a God-awful imperialist. He praises Woodrow Wilson without calling the racist that he was. He quotes Eisenhower on leadership but doesn’t mention his reluctance to act on matters of civil rights. At least not yet he hasn’t done any of those things. Maybe he’ll get around to it, but so far he’s being way too much of Pollyanna for me.

Meacham quotes Adam Smith, Thomas Paine, and other Enlightenment optimists on the proposition that people are basically good. Smith says the successful won’t close the door after them to keep others out. Like hell they won’t! That at least was my first thought. But the question occurs to me: Just what is my opinion of humanity generally and humans individually? Are people basically good, or basically bad, or basically both? I think we are by nature naturally selfish. Our egos want us to look out for No. 1 and sometimes say to hell with everyone else. We are so distinctly created as centered selves that it is nearly impossible not to be self-centered. True fullness of life comes from overcoming self-centeredness, but very few people are ever able to do it. Fullness of life comes for living agape love, but human culture mostly pushes so strongly against that kind of living that relatively few people even know that there is a way of living that is not destructively self-centered. And yes, striving for fullness of life is also self-centered in a way. But there is a distinct moral difference between self-centered as being concerned only for oneself and being self-centered as a way of being concerned for others, for justice, for peace, for environmental protection, etc.

We subsist as centered selves. We cannot subsist any other way. That we do makes it more likely that we will do harm to others than that we will do good for others. The highest stage of human development is self-transcendence. That doesn’t mean we cease to be a centered self. We can’t cease being a centered self. It means living as a self out of oneself. Out of one’s ego. Out of one’s concern only for oneself. So very, very few people ever reach that stage of development.

Our dominant American culture says work to get yourself ahead and take your immediate family with you, but don’t worry much about anyone else. We’ve long idolized the “self-made man,” not realizing, or pretending that we don’t realize, that there is no such thing. Something like twenty-four hundred years ago Aristotle said humans are social animals. Of necessity we live in relationship with others. We can’t thrive without living in relationship with others. That should mean that we improve ourselves and our lives not by being selfish but by cultivating healthy relationships with others, relationships that benefit both ourselves and the other. Yet it seems to me that so few of us do it. Or at least, very few of us are intentional about doing it.

I've never been particular intentional about doing it myself except with my immediate family. I’m an introvert, or at least most of the time I’m an introvert. I don’t make friends easily. Essentially no one seeks me out as a friend, nor do I seek anyone else out as a friend. I’ve had friends. I married two of them. But I’ve been telling myself recently that my Irish Terrier Jake was the best friend I’ve ever had canine or human. Jake had no choice about living with me. Mercifully, that reality for dogs doesn’t seem to bother them. They create a pack with us and have no thought of doing anything else, or at least most of them don’t.

We humans always have a choice about being in intentional relationship with another person. We live of necessity in unintentional relationship with countless others, most of whom we never meet. I’ll never meet the people who created and built this computer I’m using right now, but I have a relationship with them. I’ll never meet the people who designed and built the roads I drive on so frequently, but I have a relationship with them. I’ll never meet the people who discovered and manufactured the prescription drugs I take every day, but I have a relationship with them. That’s why there’s no such thing as a self-made man. Rich people often think they got rich solely through their own efforts. They may have devoted immense efforts to getting rich, but they simply did not do it alone. As Donne so wisely said, “no man is an island.”

So much of the harm we do comes from our failure to understand and live into that truth. At least in the dominant American culture it is quite the cultural norm for people to claw their way to the top of some economic or political structure giving not one good God damn about the people they trample on the way up.

So I guess my basic conception of humans is that we are capable of being and doing good, but the odds are stacked against our being and doing good. Yes, the world has a great many good people. A very few are saints. Many are just decent folk who don’t intentionally harm anyone and are ready to help others as they are able. A great many others, however, don’t give a damn about anyone else. They’re perfectly willing to harm others to advance what they think are their own self-interests. They vote for politicians who they think will benefit themselves with no thought to whether or not those politicians will benefit society as a whole. There’s a reason “liberal” has become a dirty word among us. Those who want everyone to focus only on themselves or their own class or race have to put down people whose focus is broader as weak or a socialists who want to take people’s money away and give it to people who don’t deserve it. Many people consider the term “do-gooder” to be an insult. So many of us do being human so badly.

Then there are the instances in which people, usually but not always as part of a group of people, whether a small street gang or a whole nation, do such horrific things that we can hardly believe humans are capable of doing them. Some human being in an SS uniform shot all those Jews in Poland and the USSR. Some human being in an SS uniform opened the valve to gas a huge number of innocent people to death, and some other human being ordered him to do it. Someone shot all those people Stalin ordered to be shot. I read once of a Russian man whose regular job was to spend a regular work shift shooting people in the back of the head. Some human beings broke into the homes of Ukrainian peasants and stole the little bit of food they had so they would starve to death, and some other human beings ordered them to do it. Mao didn’t kill millions of people with is own hands. Other human beings did it for him. The Japanese soldiers who carried out the rape of Shanghai were human beings. Being human carries with it no insurmountable barrier to being a murderous monster.

Yet of course most of us by far are not murderous monsters. Most of us are just ordinary folk going about our lives trying to live as best we can and not intentionally harming anyone. But so many of us, myself included, live privileged lives as beneficiaries of systems of oppression and even genocide. I’ve never killed a Native American, and I never will. But it was Americans of European heritage like me who carried out a policy of theft, violence, and oppression against Native Americans that really did amount to genocide. I’ve never dropped an atomic bomb on anyone, and I never will. My father never did either, but he may have survived World War II because someone else did.

People like me like to think of ourselves as so innocent, but we really aren’t. I live in a country that makes up something like 3% of the world’s population but consumes something like 25% of the world’s resources. Just being an American with privilege makes me guilty because I benefit from so much wrong. I am a white American who benefits every day from my country’s history and present reality of virulent racism. I live on land my white ancestors stole from Native people. I buy products made in countries with low wages so I can afford them and someone else can make a lot of money off of them.

When I stop to think about what it is to be human, it all gets awfully depressing. Yes, there is a lot of good in the world, though we don’t hear about it nearly as much as we hear about all the bad. We see horrific video of police officers beating Tyre Nichols to death. We don’t see video of police officers actually helping the people they supposedly are there to help. Yes, there is a lot of good in the world. But the amount of bad in the world can just be overwhelming. How can we humans do so much harm to other humans, to other living beings, and to the earth itself? Most of us don’t want to do any harm at all, but we do it nonetheless. And most of us Americans don’t even know all the harm our levels of affluence cause in other parts of the world.

So are human beings good? Or are we bad? The answer has to be, yes. We have so much potential in us both for good and for evil. Our call as humans is to avoid the evil and do the good. Many of us succeed in fulfilling that call, but many of us don’t. I guess the bottom line here is just that being a human being is a very complicated thing. Sadly, I don’t think it’s every going to get simpler.

 

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